So much for that thought

Update
My 1993 Subaru died! Right in the middle of an intersection! Had to get a new(er) car, so I picked out a 2008 Pontiac Vibe. You can see from the pics that they sure look similar. The Vibe is very nice though, good gas mileage, safe car and kinda cute!


Early September 2009 I had my latest CT scan, after a summer off of all treatment.
Really hoped to continue THAT situation, but unfortunately they detected some growth.

I still don't know exactly how much, but bottom line they explained that there's been "enough" growth since day one to now feel I should go back on chemo. Pretty devastating news.

We're trying Nexavar - an oral chemo used for kidney cancer and recently approved for liver cancer. Since I "sorta' have liver cancer they think it might do some good. We'll see. After the 1st 2 weeks I was up to there with side effects. Couldn't eat much, felt lousy, pain in my sides, skin rash all over and my poor head! I couldn't even touch it with a comb or brush, yet it itched like crazy!

So they pulled me off it entirely for a week and now I'm back to taking 1/2 the regular dose. 2 pills/day vs 4/day. So far so good, but it's not even been a week yet.

Bottom line I guess is that I'm back in it again. I'm praying that everything stays as slow moving as it has been and that I don't get sick from the cancer itself.
We'll see! Best to all
Patti

CancerCompass: RE: Unknown primary cancer site

CancerCompass: RE: Unknown primary cancer site
Response I wrote to some people at cancercompass.com

I've been remiss - on chemo vacation

I see I've not blogged for a long time! wow!

My last post was about the genetic testing they did, and that nothing really new came from it except that they eliminated all sorts of "other" cancers that now it is definitely NOT. Ok, so what is it?

They have a name for my cancer now (after 2 yrs!) At least this is the latest incarnation. It's called CholangioHepatoma (means part liver & part bile duct cancer, but all mixed together in each tumor). If I thought bile-duct cancer was rare, this really takes the cake! Having two kinds of cancers in the same tumor is quite a stunt I think.

Regardless, my Oncologist says that he thinks I am acting "dormant". Meaning, as we've been told forever, nothing is growing (much)and nothing is shrinking at all despite 4 different Chemo attempts and a year of chemo pills. The good news of that is that I am on vacation from chemo. I've not had anything all summer!!!!! Now, in September I'm feeling sorta 'normal'? Better, anyway. At the end of the month I have a CT scan scheduled and will meet with my Onc 1st week of October.

Emotionally or mentally, this has caused a change in my attitude. I've found myself doing things that assume I'll be around for awhile. I'd ask Dr. Dragovich if I could believe from his comments that my prognosis could be for three years? and he said yes. Now the problem is... did he count these first two????? :) I'm gonna say Yes!

So, I've been "feathering my nest", purchasing some actual furniture accessories, etc. I took the vacation to E Germany and Czech Republic - still owe some pictures here!!! (I forgot!) and even went to the dentist!

Now going to the dentist doesn't seem very odd, but in my mind while I knew I had some dental problems, why get into it if I'm not going to be around very long?

When I found myself in the dental chair agreeing to have a tooth pulled and making plans to get a bridge, I had a sort of bubbly champagey feeling....Wow! I must think I'm going to survive!!!! That was very strange after two years of thinking any day now I'd be down for the count.

So I'm liking this vacation and hope it lasts a GOOD LONG TIME!
Here's a picture of my sister in Prague and I in Germany.♠

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Update on Molecular Analysis

My biopsy analysis was pretty good,I guess. Not that they got any definite results! (AGAIN) Turns out the "best" match is that my cells/proteins/dna resembles primary liver cancer. But neither my Oncologist nor I think that fits. It Might if I'd ever had hepatitis A, but I haven't. Regardless, they eliminated all the other cancers like breast, lung, kidney, colon etc etc so even Dr. Dragovich thinks it's likely that I'll be around for a few more years at least - because it IS slow-growing whatever it is, and he's doing more research to see if it could be a combo-like cancer such as bile-duct AND liver somehow. He's going to talk to the pathologist again. Anyway, it's great news that it's not a cancer that seems to be in a hurry to do anything. More later....

I'm not sure where I left things! :) I don't think I even mentioned that they took a CT scan when I called back the next day and told them that pain pills were not doing anything!

So, ya, they took a CT scan to make sure it wasn't anything really dangerous - like bleeding. Nope, so THEN they took me up to the chemo center and IV'd me for 3 hrs or so with steroids to reduce the inflamation of my liver. They figured that the pain was caused by my liver getting too big and pushing on things that didn't like it! :)

The liver was inflamed from the biopsies. They poked me 3 or 4 different times all over. So..... that worked! I went home feeling SO much better and have been taking some more steroids via pills. I'm almost done with that now and there seems to be no after effects. so WHEW!! dodged a bullet.

The weird thing was sitting in the "chemo chair"! I got some very strange feelings and ended up crying and feeling very out of control. Told JB about it tonight and she said that it sounded like "post-traumatic stress". In a way, I guess because it brought up all sorts of powerlessness feelings and fear and all of that stuff. Feelings I'm sure I experienced when I was actually getting chemo, but were so bound up in the whole experience that I didn't realize how traumatic that whole thing is.
Very strange....

Ok, I admit it...Took the Steroids!

Another whole day at the doc's. Good news! had a CT scan that showed no major trouble. Got a 3 hr IV of steroids that shrunk liver back to size and stopped the really bad, can't breathe pain stuff. All looks good as of this eve. WHEW!!! Do NOT want to do that again! Thanks for everyone's prayers & good wishes :)